This is in one of my other blogs, but I felt...

I needed to put it here as well.
Entry for October 20, 2005
Daily extended (by Astrology.com)
Someone has been not-so-subtly 'working' you, for reasons you have yet to discern -- and that fact alone is making you crazy. Half of you believes they're interested in you for more than professional or platonic reasons, which presents a whole set of problems you're already trying to work out. The other half is wondering what they want. Ah, well. Don't lose any sleep over it. You're more than equipped to handle either situation. The question is, are they?

Ok I have no idea who or what they are talking about here. The only one it could have been isn't talking to me on a regular basis and so I have stepped back greatly too. I still care about this person, but I can see where Coyote and the Ancestors used a situation to get me over one loss and yet caused another loss. :( This one hurts almost as bad, but I know that some breaks need to be for growth.
Wondertwin power deactivate.
Love will always be there, but the old reliance on one to get over another is no longer allowable. Time for this kid to quit trying to hang on to old habits and thoughts. No if onlys, no yeah buts, each thing while in a grand scheem of things is in it's own right one thing. Cause and effect at each step of the way.
Fall the time of reflection, leading to winter the time of old things, thoughts, actions to be laid to rest.
Come spring a new beginning.
Time now to go into semi-hibernation, to work on me and to grow in the spring.