Some new steps

One of my pagan friends from the news boards and I were talking last Saturday night and he had read what I wrote about being Were-beast and he "read" me and this is what came of some of the talk.

Your issue is Knowing
gryphonelder: Yeah
You Feel that because your internal spirit is of this polarity you must do this
gryphonelder: To me it feels like I am being called to do this.
you deny your personality and try to force it itno what you see the archetype of the "Spirit" is and that is wrong
you are not two beings
gryphonelder: My personality tends to get me into trouble
You are not the Great Cat
The Great Cat is You
gryphonelder: I have had the two spirit dream though ... True
gryphonelder: So be the Cat. Hhhmmm
allow you to come forth, allow the great cat to manifest itself as it will thru you
no be YOU
The cat will answer
gryphonelder: :-? (rubing chin thinking)
IT will give YOU the instruction, It will tell YOU how to act but YOU have the say so, it is Primal, Humans aren't. It's fine to be aggressive but it isn't to be violent, when something you personally prey upon(a new job position for example) the cat will tell you when to strike
Don't allow it to force you to react
Hold yourself in reserve, listen to the advice and reason
The thing about being a Were is not to let it overwhelm your humanity
gryphonelder: This is a lot to think on and learn to do.
gryphonelder: I know I was talking with someone about that earlier today.
You are Human, the weakest but Highest on the food chain. You have to learn how to prove it. there are times to let the cat free and times to chain it.
gryphonelder: The only time in the past that I have let it free is when I am hunting someone/thing that needs to quit hurting inocents.
Learn to Listen to the instincts but apply reason to them
Protecting innocents is different only to a smaller degree, REMAIN WITHIN THE LAW You have no defense if you stray outside.
gryphonelder: I know and I am very careful about that
Alow the cat to stalk evidence that you seek, ferret out those who saw...........
It ain't easy
gryphonelder: No, but I'm finding the best things in my life aren't the easy things

So now to find the way to put me and the big cat on the same page. This could prove to be interesting.
I was asked by one of my nieces if with my temper this could be done safely. My answer was/ is if I do it slow enough that the cat and I can blend quite well.
Sitting here now thinking about the times I have the most trouble with my depression, I don't think the big cat was out to play. I think that was when I was trying to be so "normal", but I'm not normal in many ways because there really is no such animal as "normal".
So now I will be working on blending me.